sorrow

This sorrow is about life... I always regard life as a competition and I always want to get the best I can get, but now, I might be the one in the worst condition among others. No scholarship, no job, no more friend...
I want to be someone like Jingle, who knows several language, have scholarship, get the job I can't have and, and have a lot of friends...
I know I should apply for the scholarship and I thought I could never got one, I know I should apply for jobs although I always fail.
I'm pretty sad and I can do nothing but keep working...
When will this unlucky time pass away? When will the night end and the dawn come? and, where is my "bright future"?

really really sad...